Posts Tagged ‘prayer’

an answer to prayer

November 28, 2010

I was talking to my mom on the phone yesterday, telling her about my new job (YAY).  The whole thing happened so quickly– there was less than a week between applying and accepting the job offer– and my [Christian] mom made this observation: “I know you probably don’t see it this way, but it seems like an answer to prayer, doesn’t it?”

And since I absolutely avoid all types of religious debates with my mom, and since I am not in the habit of being in any way rude to her, I didn’t say, “It can’t be an answer to prayer if I didn’t actually pray.” Instead I went on to tell her why it happened so quickly (both the reason I was sure of and the reason I suspected).

But that’s not the whole story. 

I only had a day to prepare for the interview and I spent the whole day doing it.  And that night as I went to sleep I thought, “Boy, I sure hope I get this job.”  And where a few years ago I would have prayed, you know what I did, last week, as an atheist?

Said a prayer.  To Persephone.  It went a little something like this.

Dear Queen of the Underworld,

I hope your winter is going well.  We miss you up here.  I would be very happy to send you a nice photo of California springtime, to encourage you during these cold months, especially if you would be so kind as to help me get this job.

All the best,


And since I got the job, I was gonna hit a Friends of the Library Bookstore for a nice photo to send Her way.  I guess I’ll burn it?

Yeah.  Probably best not to tell my mom about this one.  She’ll think I’m totally off my rocks.  Which I might be.  But this amuses me.


Quitting Small Group

April 2, 2009

I have quit my Thursday night Small Group (not a Bible Study, which I might actually be more interested in) since UC Riverside is having a lecture series starting up this week on Thursdays. I think the SG leader was a little relieved that I won’t be there any more. I think we all like each other well enough– I know I like them just fine– but who really wants an atheist at a religious meeting? They do prayer requests and have worship songs with a silly little karaoke DVD the church provided and they talk about how being a Christian is way better than having a secular meaningless life with no morals. Seriously. Every time that comes up I wonder if they are going to ask me what I think, but they don’t. I feel like I am the elephant in the room. When it came up the first time, I described the humanist worldview to them and described a universal and comprehensive ethical rule I find compelling. But they clearly don’t buy it since they keep repeating the “no morals” bit. They probably feel sorry for me. They certainly do pray for me, which doesn’t bother me. It’s not my time they’re wasting when they do. One person said a little joke that went something along the lines of, “we’re praying for you whether you like it or not!” Am I supposed to dislike it?

Anyway, the point I was getting at is this free University lecture series, which happens to be on evolution, is taking place on the same weeknight as the Small Group. And that makes me happy. Besides, In-n-Out Burger is on the way to Riverside, and they have a decent Boba Tea shop in town, too. Doesn’t get much better than that. Or, well, it could technically be better if I could afford those things. But never mind.